While coming to Spain has always been my dream a little piece of me was excited to get away from the shadow of my past relationship. 9 months into my break up and people still asked me about the wedding, asked me why I didn´t wear my ring anymore, etc… It´s crazy to think that the worst experience in my life has led me to the best experience of my life. Every day I wake up and I can´t believe how blessed I am to have been given the opportunity to teach English in Spain. My apartment is absolutely beautiful. I´ve made amazing friends already and I´ve only been here a month. I have a few crushes here and there and everywhere lol. The fruits and vegetables here are divine. Every day I eat the best mango, avocado, and persimmon I´ve ever had in my life lol. My job is amazing. I work 12 hours a week at an elementary school. The other day I decided to watch the movie Eat, Pray, Love for the hundredth time and at one point Julia Roberts refers to “dolce far niente”, an Italian saying that means…the sweetness of doing nothing and it just hit me how much I am able to enjoy the sweetness of doing nothing in Spain. In the United States this was an unknown concept for me. The great thing about Spain is that all I have is time…time to learn another language, time to learn how to cook, time to ride horses, etc… On a normal day I spend like 2 hours at the gym, 2 or more hours at a cafe drinking tea with friends, 3 to 4 hours at work, 1 to 2 hours cooking, and 1 hour napping (ugh gotta love siesta) However, even with all the distance and the beauty in my life I find that I miss my ex more than ever. That brings me to another quote from the movie which struck a chord for me, “But I love him.” “So love him.” “But I miss him.” “So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, and then drop it. You’re just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you’ll really be alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she’s really alone. But here’s what you gotta understand. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed.”
I know that just as in Eat, Pray, Love my quest to find love in Spain will end with more love than I ever dreamed….